Each time I sat down to write it felt like steel doors closed off the part of my brain that supplies creativity. Every time I would get an idea, it remained just that, an idea. I was beyond frustrated and my deadline was looming in the near future. My thoughts were a mess and I was definitely buying into the lies I was hearing and saying to myself. You know the usual suspects, so they don't warrant repeating. I have a theory that the devil has only a few tricks that he spins 1,000 different ways. Let's face it, either we're stupid or he's an amazing liar. Maybe it's a bit of both? ha!
So there I sat having a nice little pity party. Fortunately, I have great friends. Michele talked me down from the "I can't/don't want to do it!" whining ledge, Shelby gave me some awesome writing tips to help me think from a different perspective, Jen was my resident proof-reader/encourager, and my Bible study girls were interceding for me the 2 weeks leading up to the deadline.
The true turning point came when I was reading through my twitter feed. Michele re-tweeted Rev Run and it so hit home for me:
RT @RevRunWisdom if youre under attack, its because your blessing is CLOSE! Thieves only come to loaded vaults!
At that moment my prayer changed from "God I can't" to "God, I know you having something to say through me. Please give me the words to say." I found that place of believing the truth about what God was telling me of him being able no matter if I feel like I can or not. How quickly I forget that he is God and that my battle is that the devil doesn't want God's truth to be made public.
What are you giving up because it seems too difficult? Are you willing to take that first step into your destiny even though it feels like you're walking naked onto a stage?
One last question for the writers out there. What is your writing process? All help for this novice writer is great appreciated!!
